darkraptor1

Dear Shiny entertainment...

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 08:52:18 GMT

I was just playing The matrix: Path of Neo a few minutes ago. I was playing the opening level, where you fight several enemy types to determine how good you are.

Shiny (the developers who made the game), I have to ask you one question:

WHY THE GODDAMN FUCK DID YOU MAKE THOSE FUCKING SHIELD ASSHOLES SO FUCKING HARD TO KILL?!?!?!?!?

WHY?! WHY IN THE GODDMAN HELL DID YOU MAKE THOSE MOTHER FUCKERS SO FUCKING HARD TO KILL?!?!? AGENTS ARE A PUSHOVER COMPARED TO THOSE FUCKING ASSHOLES WITH THOSE FUCKING LITTLE SHIELDS WHO FUCKING CHASE YOU AND FUCKING "PONK" YOU OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!!!

AND WHY, OH SO WISE SHINY, DID YOU MAKE THIER FUCKING SHIELDS SO FUCKING INDESTRUCTIBLE? THOSE ARE PLASTIC SHIELDS FOR GODDAMN CHRISTS SAKE! I SHOOT THEM SIX MILLION TIMES WITH BULLETS, AND THOSE FUCKING SHIELDS STILL STAY UP!!!!!!

WHY THE GODDAMN FUCK DID YOU MAKE THOSE ASSHOLES SO HARD TO KILL!?!?!?!?

GODDAMN YOU SHINY! GODDAMN YOU TO HELL!

*Sigh*

Okay...

...that felt good.

Goodnight.

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 05:02:27 GMT

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Another shark video

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 19:46:43 GMT

This one is qute cool!

http://www.stupidvideos.com/

Woman jumps into shark

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 16:50:21 GMT

Just found this cool shark video

http://www.stupidvideos.com/Default.asp?VideoID=115

I am so sick of Chrisianity

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 06:54:16 GMT

Note of caution: If you are a christian and don't like reading about how people don't really like your faith, you may want to go elsewere.

Gone? Okay, I gave fair warning...

I am so sick of Christianity right now. Why? Because they don't make any logical sense, and they are doing a very good job of instilling fear. Fear, terror, illness, etc.

I used to be a Christian, but I am no longer one, and I don't miss it. For I have discovered that Christianity, and any religion for that matter, are religions of fear. Pure, untainted fear. Oh yes, the love of God is there, the love of Jesus Christ our lord (God, I am so sick of hearing that), but the fear is always there. Christians, Muslims, whatever, all fear God at thier hearts. Why? Because God can get angry. God can get upset. God can try to call you back to him, via his son, but if you ignore him, then you will go to hell forever and ever. And though you may call out to God, God will conviniently ignore you, because you didint accept his son. Therefore, you have to spend the rest of eternity roasting.

Wake up Christians! Do you see how utterly, utterly stupid this is?! In order to get to heaven, you have to accept Jesus Christ (a dead guy) as your lord and savior (I am so SICK of that saying). Why? Is God not powerful enough to forgive you himself? Is he utterly powerless to be kind and forgive you for whatever sin you've done? Apparently, no, he is not. Instead, Jesus Christ is the way to go!

Boy, people sure like to worship Jesus the man, rather then Jesus the teachings. Apparently, swearing an alligence to Jesus Christ gets you a magical ticket to heaven because you believe in him! There you go, nothing more to do. Just sit back, relax, and let Jesus do all the work for you. He'll clean your house, mow your lawn, get you into heaven, etc. Heck, you can blow up a bus full of homeless children and you'll still go to heaven because Jesus is your lord and savior. Why? Because he died on the cross, and thus got you your magical ticket to heaven!

Helllooooo?! Does that make any sense? God saw the people of earth, and saw that they needed to come back to him, but he was somehow powerless to do so. Humanity was drenched in sin because thier great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great, great grandfather (adam) had sinned. Because these people were drenched in sin, they were destined to fall into Hell upon thier death. And even though God was a vengeful God, he decided to send his son to earth to pay the price so that Humanity could come back home to God. So Jesus went off to earth, died an incredibly painful death on the cross, paid the ransom that saved humanity, and died. Now, thanks to the sacrifice of Jesus Christ, we are all saved from sin! All we have to do is pledge our alliegence to him, and he will save us! Or are we?

You see that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone. (James 2:24)

But...what was with the price to pay for humanities sins? Apparently, humanity was held hostage by sin. Was God utterly powerless against sin? Or was humanity held hostage by the devil? If so, then was God powerless, or held at bay by the devil, and had to pay Jesus as a ransom to get humanity back? Oh, and don't forget that back when Jesus was around, animal sacrifice was perfectly acceptable. Sacrifices had to be made to the gods to make them pleased and bless humanity. So Jesus was sacrificed to please a tribal God, thus sparing the people from God's wrath and punishment. So Jesus was basically a glorified goat or lamb.

But...Good God, i'm so sick of people worshipping a dead guy who is apparently the savior of the world. And if you believe in him little children, you'll get a magical ticket to heaven! Give me a break people!

Now, I do like Jesus. I think he was a great human being who had some great lessons for all of humanity (love, oneness, forgivness, acceptance, etc). But people ignore all that in favor of worshiping the teacher, rather then the lessons. Why? Because a two thousand year old book tells you to!

And then there's the concept of origional sin. The idea that every person, no matter how nice, kind, generous, forgiving, accepting, and loving they are is automatically damned to hell because of a sin that thier great, great grandfather to the 200th power made a mistake. How utterly stupid is that idea?! That's like saying beacuse my caveman ancestor smashed a flower that God liked, that caveman and all his descendants are damned to hell (unless they accept Jesus Christ as thier lord and savior). That includes me, a guy who had nothing to do with what my caveman ancestor did.

Then there's this statement regarding babies and sin. "We cannot simply assume that children are "innocent" and are therefore exempt from the penalties of sin. The Bible teaches clearly that infants are in a state of sin and need to be regenerated. They, like all humanity, can be saved only through Christ." (from www.ChristianAnswers.net).

GOOD GOD PEOPLE, ARE YOU REALLY THAT STUPID?!

Do you really think that these babies, who know absoloutly nothing about anything, are drenched in sin, and need to be "Saved" though Jesus Christ?! Look, anyone with some common sense can see how utterly moronic the idea is. These are freakin babies we're talking about here! They are more pure, innocent and loving then any adults out there in this world, and they need to be saved?! Give me a freakin break!

The more and more I read about Christianity, the more and more I see how utterly stupid it can get. Jesus is the only way! Why? Because John 14: 6 says, "I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me". Wow! That's a pretty big statement to say! What if Jesus instead meant, "If you want to know God as I know God, then live your life as I have, follow the example I have set for you. If you do this, then you will know God." But no, no, no! That's blasphemy! Jesus is the way, the truth and the life! He's your magical ticket to heaven!

GIVE ME A FREAKIN BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!

And when Christians apparently come up with a tough answer such as "Why would God send someone to hell forever?" they simpy say, "It's not our place to know. Trust in the Lord (What? Too scared to call God God?)". Well guess what people! I don't want anyone to go to hell. If I had the choice, I would not condemn anyone to hell, ever. No being is so enormously cruel, so unbelivably sadistic to go that far. I would never send anyone to hell. I would not send Osama Bin Ladden to hell. I wouldn't send Hitler or Stalin to hell. I wouldn't send anyone to hell because it's not right! Now, if I won't send anyone to hell because it's not right, and God will, then who here has the better moral values? You could argue that God does not send anyone to hell, that we reject his gift of salvation, and that could be a valid point (if I believed it). But if God refused to accept someone who decides to turn around and accept God after thier death, then I still say that I might have the better values. If I was God, I would be delighted if someone turned to me, even if it was after thier death. I would be happy if anyone turned to me, no matter when they did it.

Wake up people! Look at Jesus the teachings! Don't worship Jesus the man. What if he came here to save us from our lower nature, rather then our "Sins". What if he did come here to present us a way back to God, via the way he lived, and the teachings he embodied? You're all in the personality of Jesus cult, whether you recognize it or not!

And don't even get me started on the bible. It's a two thousand year old book written by guys who lived in a differnt time then yours, who had a different mindset then yours, and is not the word of God. Why? Because it was written by PEOPLE! NOT BY GOD! Yeah, they may have claimed that God was the author, and that humanity was the pen, but apparently God made a lot of mistakes and didint bother to proofread the bible before it was sent of to printing. Don't believe me? How about this?

"But they deliberately forget that long ago by God’s word the heavens existed and the earth was formed out of water and by water." (2 Peter 3:5). Wow! The earth was formed out of water! Wrong!

God is jealous: "For the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God." (Exod. 34:14)
Jealousy is a sin: "The acts of the sinful nature are obvious ... jealousy" (Gal. 5:19-20)

One question: Is God a sinner? I rest my case.

"The priest is to burn all of the bull on the altar. It is a burnt offering, an offering made by fire, an aroma pleasing to the Lord." (Lev. 1:9) Mmm...beef! It's whats for dinner!

And then there's everyone's favorite...the last judgement! When God gathers everyone and goes, "You-hell. You-heaven. You-hell, etc." So many people (christians) are looking forward to being judged!

But wait a minute! God doesn't judge us, and neither does Jesus!

You judge by human standards; I pass judgment on no one. But if I do judge, my decisions are right, because I am not alone. I stand with the Father, who sent me. (John 8:15-16)...It [love] keeps no record of wrongs. (1 Cor. 13:5)...God is love. (1 John 4:16)

As for the person who hears my words but does not keep them, I do not judge him. For I did not come to judge the world, but to save it. (John 12:47)

The bible is not THE book. It is A book. It's a holy book, the same as the Egyptian book of the dead, the Torah, the Qur'an, etc. Why is it better then those? Because the bible says so, that's why!

Please.

You won't find God in a book. The bible is not God!

You want to know what God is? I'll tell you. Love. God is love. Love is what saves you, not worship of a guy or a book. Love of God, love of nieghbor will really get you into heaven. Love will get you into heaven, not worshipping a man or worshipping a book. Jesus himself is the Word - and the Word is God - and God is love. Simple as that. That's all you need to know. Love. Not joining the Jesus personality cult. Love is all that matters. Jesus came to earth to tell us of Gods love for EVERYONE. And love does not reject ANYONE, no matter what religion, faith, or personality anybody has.

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. (1 John 4:16)

Why can't people think for themselves damnit?! Are some of you so desperate that you'll take anything you can get, blindly obeying it without a second thought?! Look deeper people...the rabbit hole goes very deep. Love is what you'll find at it's bottom. Not a smilling Jesus demanding your worship.

Wake up everyone! Break out of the Jesus cult. See that LOVE is the answer. The holy spirit it LOVE. If you reject Jesus, you are not damned. If you reject the holy spirit, which is LOVE, then you need help. For LOVE is what matters. LOVE! Not worshipping a guy to get a magical ticket to heaven. LOVE!

*sigh*

If you are blantandly offended by my post, then I'm sorry that you're offended. I don't apologize for posting my views on Christianity. Now, if you don't bother me, I won't bother you. You're free to go off and believe whatever you want to believe. I just needed to get all of this out of my system.

*sigh*

That felt good. I think i'll go talk to God and thank him for inspiring me to write this post.

Rain!

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 19:21:36 GMT

Gah!

It's raining here at college, and I forgot my umbrella. Guess i'm going to have to be quick getting to and from classes. I'll also have to be careful not to be struck by lightning (there have been about ten flashes and thunderclaps already).

One step closer to more disk space

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 03:42:53 GMT

At last, i've finally gotten my own folder at chupandxena's site (http://www.chupandxena.com). With any luck, i'll be able to start sending some of my pictures over there from my vore sites (http://darkraptor1.tripod.com) (http://darkraptor1s.tripod.com) to free up some space. I feel terrible not being able to update my sites, but alas, normal life can be very, very busy.

Wind, sky, and peace.

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 05:27:16 GMT

Have you ever had a moment where you really felt at peace, and when you felt as if you touched God?

That moment happened to me a little while ago.

I had gotten home from work, and stepping out of the car, I noticed how warm it was. Not hot, not cold, just...warm. The wind was blowing too.

I went inside, and went out into the backyard. Feeling rather good, I lay down on the grass and watched the night sky above me. I listened to the warm wind gently blowing through the air. I felt the soft grass beneath me. Everything was quiet, save for the wind blowing, and a bug chirping nearby.

It was very, very peaceful. Too bad moments like these don't happen more often. Where one is watching the night sky, listening and feeling the wind blow while enjoying the peace and quiet. I should do this more often, as it's more refreshing and enjoyable then watching the television.

I'm one of those who believes that God is everywhere, and is everything. If that's true, then I saw God tonight, watching that beautiful night sky, feeling his warm touch blowing through the sky, and listening to his peace.

Sometimes mornings can be nice

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 20:23:52 GMT

Why do I say that? Mostly because my mind loves playing out it's most delicious fantasies when I wake up. Nothing like waking up and having a nice image of a girl locked in chains playing in your mind (I go nuts for women locked in cuffs). Or, it could be seeing myself either in chains, or being wrapped up in bandages as a mummy (I have a mummy fetish). I'll say that it's oh so sexy to fantasize like this in the morning. More efficent at waking one up then having a hot drink!

My fantasy this morning involved neither of those things, but it was quite satisfying nonetheless. I fantasized that I was a large dragonish being, and I was holding a human I loved very close to me in my big scaley arms. I would lie on the ground, holding this human woman I love in my arms, holding her very close to me and my warm skin. And she loved it, snuggling close to me, so helpless, so innocent, and depending completely on me for her protection and care.

*sigh*

I'd like to have a large pet dragon that would hold me like that. It would be so...lovely.

Poor Armorine

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 02:44:43 GMT

So, what to say in a new journal?

Maybe an entry about Poor Armorine. Poor guy. Maybe I can help him feel better, though I don't know how. Maybe an e-mail will do it!

So, what else can I say? Not much. Maybe i'll put up a picture of me getting swallowed by an orca later.